It is the time to Prove myself that I am An ordinary person like every one.Although I been suspected as A " Sadist"
"Am I Sadist????
Don't know ...Couldn't recognize Myself
It
Was on a Monday When I saw the first sunrise in the earth....It was On
My Parent's First wedding anniversary .....I was a Gift given By God to
My Mom on that day...
As every one knows the gifted things cant
be use and hold every time as it should keep in a place with
care.....The same theory has been applied in my life through out...I
didn't get Mom's care in my childhood dislike other child....Hey wait a
minute I was about to say that reason behind that ,dont be mistaken my
mother ( I cant bear that ....even think too ). She has been folded her
hand due to the "Time " which is responsible for everything in our
life.She was not Blessed to feed,even see her first baby...for 13
years...
But God has given me 3 Mothers instead of one where I
couldn't miss real mother's love.I was Like a princess that day ,,,, (
However we are not that much rich )
When I successfully passed
first decade of my life it was somewhat crucial period in my life...I
lost the world of happiness .....And I was thrown to a dark life of
loneliness...
I was a 10 yr old girl so I couldn't understand
what is happening to me..I was shocked with the things happening in
front of me and stood without crying.. even not weaping
My Mother
was crying a lot that day and I totally felt uncomfortable and I
wanted to run from there. Many people were coming to my home and some
new things were happening.....but I was unable to understand the depth
and value of what the cruel FATE has taken from my life....
Day
and Night gone soon and I entered into teenage..It was a time where I
found myself happy in Loneliness.In our home there was not a separate
room for me to study or sleep..But there was a room where I can create
full darkness by closing the window.
So I selected that room to spend myself...
Till the date when I recognized that the whole thing I have done in my
life was a a big mistakes and rubbish things ,I was living with a great
deal of pride about myself..I was not ashamed to show my
incapabilities to others which making me ashamed today...I saw the
people who having the symptoms of overconfidence and arrogance ... It
was a surprising fact that they all are died before but they didn't
understand that.. They left their life by doing many cruel things
even I got hurt by them...They cheated me many times and made me to
cry...I wanted to make them realize that they all are died ,,,,I tried
for that but they all became blind due to arrogance and disbelief..They
were not able to find the light I shown to them as they wanted to be in
that darkness.
I was fully got tensed but I didn't know the reason....and I couldn't do anything for them.....
I doesn't know what they will do at the end of this life and how
they will face the punishment...So please my own Lord ,,,,Don't punish
them badly .make them to realize their faults..and give them a chance to
do best...
I am not afraid of myself ....Even though I got many opportunities to make the end of everything,,,
As earlier I am happy now and proud to say...I didn't die...
I still alive......
